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Life with Vaccine Injury: A Mother’s Perspective

What is it like to have a vaccine-injured child? Well, some days, it’s like hell on a bad day. Some days, your child smears feces on the wall, into the carpet and throws it down the vents. Some days, your child is left on a school bus for three hours in the cold. Some days, your child has diarrhea ten times that runs down their legs and covers their back. It’s a lot like hell on a bad day.

My son David was diagnosed with autism in 2005 at the age of four. It wasn’t until I was told to “consider out-of-home-placement” that I pulled myself together and started thinking critically about his health.

David was not born with autism. Logically, I knew there was a cause, but in the midst of caring for a severely disabled child, it was hard to stop long enough to think. I knew something triggered his autism and it wasn’t until I was faced with the prospect of putting my son in a home that I was able to determine that cause.

Discovering the Truth

When I was told by two well-meaning professionals to consider out-of-home placement for David, he was at his worst. He was violent, self-injurious, nonverbal and would scream bloody murder day and night for no apparent reason.

Because I could not send my son away, I was told the only other option was to try behavior meds. I had reservations about medicating a four year-old, so I scheduled a pharmacology clinic where I would meet with a child psychologist, child psychiatrist, David’s pediatrician and four other child development specialists. As required for the pharmacology clinic, I put David’s medical file in chronological order, including the dates he was vaccinated.

As I put the file in order, it became abundantly clear vaccines had triggered his autism, chronic diarrhea and changes in behavior. Although I was awestruck at the time, what was to come in the years ahead would prove to be much more difficult than the initial realization that my son’s disability was caused by vaccines.

In the days following this stunning realization, I was plagued by one thought. The country I love with everything inside of me was the catalyst in my son’s injury. My son, a son of the American Revolution, had been denied his civil liberties by the one thing I thought would protect him: vaccines.

Coping With Guilt, Grief, Anger, and Sadness

The knowledge that my beautiful child was suffering unnecessarily was a second mourning. It could have been prevented. He could have had a better life.

Then came the grief. The consuming, painful grief I felt for the loss of his childhood. My boy, my perfect baby, had slipped into a world of his own. I grieved the loss of him. At thirteen months, his pediatrician called him a “genius” because he knew his alphabet, could recognize numbers up to five and had a solid vocabulary for his age. All of that disappeared within forty eight hours after his vaccines.

If I hadn’t put his medical file in order, I would have never known the antecedent. The cause of my son’s regression into autism was vaccines which brought on the next wave of emotions; guilt.

What had I done? I had taken my son to be vaccinated. He was healthy, he was thriving and he was helpless. It was my responsibility to protect him and I failed. I failed to read a vaccine package insert. If I had, I’d have known that the formulation of the DTaP vaccine they gave my son listed autism as an adverse reaction.

If I had taken five minutes to read an insert I’d have known that there were great risks involved but I didn’t. I didn’t read one word about vaccines before I took him in, held him down and allowed a stranger to permanently harm him.

The guilt that comes with vaccine injury is profound. Why didn’t I do my homework? When did I become so trusting of the government? Why didn’t I take the time to read up on something that was to be injected into my son? I was crippled by grief; after all, it was me who was supposed to protect him from the bad in this world and I failed to do so. [1]

Then came the anger. I was so angry. I took David’s medical file to his pediatrician and let him have it. Then I sat down with the other pediatrician in the office and the nurse who had said to me during an office visit, “What the hell is wrong with this kid? What did you do to him?”

I tore into both of them, leaving them both in tears. I thought it would make me feel better but it didn’t. Then I got angry at God. How could He let this happen to my boy? Where was He?

Next came reality, the reality that my son may never get married, may never go to college, may never bathe himself. The reality of his future was incapacitating. Facing the reality that my once beautiful family was now a statistic was a tough blow.

About eighty percent of couples who have a child with autism end up in divorce. My marriage, to the love of my life, was now nothing more than a statistic, a number on a chart somewhere.

Then came the sadness. I felt so sad for David and his little brother Aidan. He’d missed out on fun, kisses from mom and dad, time spent reading and playing together because my life was no longer my own. My life now belonged to caring for his vaccine-injured brother and he always came second to David’s immediate needs.

I was sad because I missed my friends, I missed being able to work, I missed my family. I was missing out on life and there was no other way to feel, it was a very sad time for us.

The Truth About Vaccines

After the emotions subsided and time was starting to heal the wounds, I was left with the brutal and ugly truth. Vaccines didn’t just trigger my son’s autism; they were triggering autism in the children around me.

As the years go by, there are fewer children on the playground, fewer children at the amusement park, fewer children running around playing outside. Where are all the children? They are inside where their mom can keep them safe. They are in therapy thirty hours per week. They are in residential treatment facilities. They have autism.

They say the truth is stranger than fiction, and in this case, that is accurate. We are taking our children to be vaccinated under the guise we are helping to prevent disease, but in truth, we are taking our healthy children to the pediatrician’s office and leaving with chronically ill, disabled children.

The truth has been the hardest part of this journey. The truth is that our government has known that vaccines increase the risk for autism, ADHD, tics and developmental delays since 2000.

What the CDC Doesn’t Want Parents to Know

In 2000, members of the CDC, the American Academy of Pediatrics (AAP) and the World Health Organization (WHO) had a meeting about recent data collected on children who were exposed to thimerosal in vaccines. The data showed there was an increased risk for autism and other disabilities.

Instead of reporting the data to the public, they altered it, for three years, until it produced the results they wanted. My son was born in 2001; if they had the guts to speak up, my boy and millions of American children would be healthy, but that is not the case. [2]

One in six American children now has a developmental disability. What do those kids have in common? Not much, other than their vaccination status and exposure to genetically modified foods (GMOs). [3]

The increase in autism coincides with the increase in vaccines. In 1986, the federal government passed a law exempting vaccine manufacturers from liability. Since then, the CDC schedule has increased from 20 vaccines by age eighteen to 72 vaccines by age 18. [4]

They cannot be held responsible if you or your child is injured or killed by a vaccine. Instead, there is taxpayer-funded pool of money that you can apply for if you are injured. The maximum amount of compensation is $250,000 and the process takes years to settle.

The large majority of cases are dismissed and victims receive no compensation. Taxpayers pick up the tab for people who are disabled by vaccines. It’s a win-win for vaccine manufacturers, AKA pharmaceutical companies. They make money off of the vaccine, they make money when you’re injured and need pharmaceutical drugs and they have zero financial liability if you’re injured. It’s business.

Do members of the CDC, AAP and WHO know vaccines cause autism? Of course they do. Why are they allowing this to happen? Who knows?

Nico LaHood, the District Attorney for San Antonio, Texas, recently came out publicly and said vaccines triggered his son’s autism. He said,

“The malicious person and the weak person give you the same result …The malicious person is trying to hurt you. The weak person is so weak they will let the malicious person harm you and won’t warn you about it. The result is the same.”

He is right. It doesn’t matter if members of the CDC, AAP and WHO are malicious or weak; we are getting the same result. Our children’s health is being destroyed by the one thing meant to protect them, vaccines. [5]

The Road to David’s Recovery

So … what is life with a vaccine-injured child like? It’s both heaven and hell.

My son, through the grace of God, after ten years of being gluten- and casein-free, with chelation and supplements, is now doing great. He is no longer violent, he’s speaking now, he’s kind and the most gentle, loving person I have ever met. He is an angel.

The upside to knowing your child is vaccine-injured is that if we know what caused it, we can cure it. Detox is key to recovery from autism. The blessing of knowing your child is vaccine-injured is that it gives you a road map to recovery.

If you remove the heavy metals from their body they were exposed to from vaccines, the child will improve. If you repair the gut from the damage caused by vaccines (and GMOs), the child’s health will improve as neurological and immune system function is dependent upon gut health.

On the other hand, the road to where we are now felt a lot like hell. I’m tired; I am 38 and feel like I’m a hundred years old. His recovery has taken every extra penny we have and there are no vacations and spa days in my world, just repairing the damage vaccines did all those years ago.

Conclusion

The grief, guilt, anger and sadness never really leave your soul. Although David is getting better and I feel more positive than ever, the painful emotions come back from time to time when he says things like, “They took fifteen years from me, Mother. They did this to me.”

They say time heals all wounds and while our wounds are almost healed, we are still left with the truth and that is, my son was not born with autism. He suffered and lost his childhood to multi-billion dollar corporations.

Living with vaccine injury is living with regret. A wise person learns from others’ mistakes; I hope that by me sharing our journey, it will help other parents to think critically about vaccines. The guilt is probably the worst part of it all; although it is not mine to bear, I still hold onto it.

I hope that parents do not make the same mistake I did and that they read vaccine package inserts and do a bit of research before vaccinating their child. Although David is doing well and is the most loving, angelic, perfect person on Earth, this did not have to be his story. He was not born with autism; he was injected with it.

References:

  1. http://www.fda.gov/downloads…Vaccines/ApprovedProducts/UCM101580.pdf
  2. http://autismrawdata.net/blog/simpsonwood
  3. https://www.disabilityscoop.com/2011/05/23/cdc-1-in-6/13146/
  4. http://www.nvic.org/nvic-archives/newsletter/autismandvaccines.aspx
  5. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pi9PNKW7w3Q

Photo Credit

Sarah Carrasco
 

Sarah Carrasco is the mother of a fifteen year old boy with autism. She is a parent mentor and Coordinator for Talk about Curing Autism (TACA), an vocational advocate for people with developmental disabilities and is currently writing a handbook on autism. She has sat on expert panels pertaining to IEPs, resources and respite care provider training. She lives in Colorado with her three sons, David, Aidan and Brooks. David, who has regressive autism, is steadily making gains and is on the road to recovery.

  • Sugar & Spice

    I just want to say, I understand, and feel pain for you when I read your story. We have a similar story, except for because of mothers like you and others that are strong like you who talk about it, and have paved the way, we found recovery quickly and our hell lasted only a short time. Thank you so much for your strength. I pray for the day when all people wake up and listen and care about our children, all of our children.

  • shygirl75158

    As I read this to my son’s attendant, she thought I could have easily written it. David’s story is very near my son’s story. The only way I would “edit” it is that every place the word “autism” is used, I would take that our and insert “vaccine injury.” I am sick of the game of semantics the CDC, FDA, AAP, AMA and our own government have played for nearly thirty years now.

    MY son’s vaccine injury occurred immediately after four vaccines were given to him when he was fifteen months old. I had DEMANDED “Thimerosal-free” vaccines. Evidently pediatricians have been taught that it is OKAY to LIE to paretns about everything – even vaccine ingredients. It turns out that doctor LIED and gave my son thimerosal containing vaccines anyway. He immediately lost all speech and affect. In addition, his health took a nose dive. In the following year, he was diagnosed with heavy metal intoxication, a metabolic disorder NOS, an immune disorder NOS, an inflammatory bowel disorder that wound up causing mega colon, He seriously, chronically ill for nine years. And of course that made lots of money for the medical/pharmaceutical industry, but they never “HEALED” him.

    It was biomedical intervention and low, dose, frequent chelation that HEALED him. The metabolic disorder vaccines caused went unnoticed by the mainstream for over a year. This most likely caused some permanent brain injury. My son did regain speech, but he is still delayed verbally, emotionally, and socially. I do thank God every day that his intellect is intact and he is from average to above average in intelligence, but vaccines caused so many issues related to learning, that he learns in a very unique way, and I must teach him 1:1. Schools system typically just throw children like mine away and deem them “unteachable.”

    We have emerged form those very dark days of seizures, tremors, nystagmus, screaming fits, inability to cope, extreme gut pain, chronic infections and no speech. But vaccines STOLE his childhood. Now forces at play in our country are spreading like CANCER to take away parental rights and offer little to no protections for the already vaccine injured. They say you can get a medical exemption. My child has lifetime medical exemption. but what they don’t tell you is that from doctor to doctor or hospital to hospital, they are going to constantly challenge a medical exemption. Doctors who grant medical exemptions are being vilified and threatened with the loss of their licenses. they are stripping Americans of the right to practice their religions, by removing religious exemptions. It is clear to me that vaccination is an abomination to God, and there is much support to shun vaccines. But those of faith will not be able to follow their faith.

    Like this author, when your child is vaccine injured, you look around and you do not recognize your country anymore. May God save our children before it is too late.

  • shygirl75158

    You are both very smart and lucky to live in a time when so many are speaking out. I’d have given anything if someone would have warned me fifteen years ago

  • Kiwi

    This is the problem.

    “In 1986, the federal government passed a law exempting vaccine
    manufacturers from liability.”

    The focus needs to be on getting this over turned. Companies must be accountable to care about the results/impact.

  • FrenchMom

    We had a very similar experience with our son but with life threatening food allergies onset 2 weeks after vaccination to foods that he was already eating. Thank you for sharing your story. There are many of us on your journey. You are not alone.

  • Madeleine Innocent

    Homeopathy can reverse these problems. See a list of global homeopathic associations to find one near you. http://hpathy.com/homeopathy-organizations

  • Until there is legal accountability, there will continue to be zero accountability on any level at all. So I guess it is just another coincidence as well that after the federal vaccine court was enacted, absolving pharmaceutical vaccine manufacturers and vaccine providers from an further legal liability, that vaccine numbers and doses quadrupled in number, and that there are now as well some over 200 more vaccines in development, eventually looking for FDA approval.

    There are 271 New Vaccines in Big Pharma’s Pipeline
    https://healthimpactnews.com/2015/there-are-271-new-vaccines-in-big-pharmas-pipeline/

    Vaccines Market worth $57.8 Billion by 2019
    http://www.prnewswire.com/news-releases/vaccines-market-worth-578-billion-by-2019-289805011.html

  • nick quinlan

    This country is now a for profit, corporate hell hole

  • nick quinlan

    Vaccines are the crime of the century, and there are many, many people in government, and in the industry, that belong in jail for the rest of their miserable lives.
    WE the people and our children are being betrayed and subject to medical and “scientific” fraud, all for corporate profits.
    This MUST END.

  • Angelice Caballer

    Thank you for your honesty as a mother of vaccine injury. You represent many of us with this article. There are too little written we are a growing number and our children’s lives need to be valued as we did what we were told to do is protect them. We get nothing but a child who is suffering and the pain and guilt. I am so proud to hear you families story but more so a story of what it really means to be a mother a vaccine injured child. I believe we must take this up hill to progressives, I believe if we share articles and facts that are happening now ex. CDC new mandate proposals, we can open the eyes that never heard our child’s voice.

  • shygirl75158

    Yes, it is.

  • EllyW

    Thank you for writing this powerful and beautifully written account of your family’s experience with vaccine injury! I am sorry your child was injured, but it’s wonderful that you’ve been able to find effective treatment for him and that he is doing so well now! Best wishes to you and yours!

  • Tania

    Thank you for telling your story!

  • bri

    For centuries the Bible has be used to condition people to believe what they are told and to believe the written word. The same principle is used to make people to believe in governments and figures of authority, King James I realised this, which is why his name is at the front of most Bibles as he realised the power of that story. Conditioned from an early age to believe in doctors, to believe the mainstream media and to believe all the lies that we are fed.
    You always have a choice. You can believe a lie or you can question it.

  • shygirl75158

    I am certainly questioning anything the government or government agencies tell us. I question anything that man tries to portray as truth. Truth is the msot elusive of beasts to hunt.

    You say we always have a choice, but it is choice that is under attack. Californians have already lost their right to choose, and have already found their officials LIED to them about medical exemptions, and about children with IEP’s being exempt from the mandates. Children with IEP’s are largely the ones already injured by vaccines, and they would offer them up on eh altar again. And when they are further injured or even dead, the leaders will say, “Oh, but it was for the greater good!” Obviously not THOSE children’s greater good.

  • Laurenda Lane

    Thank you for telling your story. I had a similar situation with my boy after the 2yr old round of vaccinations and my genius who was saying the alphabet and counting went to tantrum throwing and head butting his head on the ground. He had straight away a distended bowel situation and later on the appearance of blood in his large stool four years of treatment with laxatives for calcification of the colon, megacolon with blockages and ongoing checkups and xray and toilet training which are a living hell. He also went through a period of being mute and now still has a lisp. He is on the autistic spectrum diagnosed with ODD. Nobody believes me but people that have been through it like you. Thank you for sharing.